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- Maybe a lie on a leather couch might help... -
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Thursday, June 02, 2005
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This will definitely not be one of my lighter posts, lol. It's what I like to call 'mental vomiting', since when emotions come to the surface, and you give yourself a platform (i.e. Wonderblog), words and thoughts just come flying out.
I thought the transition into summer would be a tad smoother than it's turning out to be. It always seems to happen like this. I'm not a big fan of the heat, so maybe when I'm cranky and hot in the summer I let that mood steep into other areas unconsciously.
So far, things have been great, projects have been moving along nicely, my multitasking hasn't left me for dead yet, and I'm taking control. Just when I run down this track, I get blindsided with decisions; too many decisions that make my head spin.
I guess I'm learning about those times in your life when you go through, well - for lack of a better term - a purging socially, mentally, and professionally. It's a cycle of past great ideas, friendships, relationships, career dreams, etc. that die and you feel like you're having to start all over again. For the past 4 years I've been working hard to surround myself with positivity in all aspects of my life.
I've let go of unhealthy relationships, dared to accomplish whatever I put my mind to, and opened up the world as if to take a step into my backyard. For the first time, I feel like this city has nothing tying me down...nothing but an older version of my life that I've shed long ago. I want something completely new, fresh, frightening.
I need to keep telling myself, "it's all about the journey, it's all about the journey..."
Wow. Purging, Vomiting...I seem to have a underlying theme creeping around. Maybe I should have just said life makes ya wanna throwing up. Aaah, that's too easy.
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Name: April
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