- Squandering my intelligence - Saturday, April 30, 2005 I must admit after seeing on the news "Bride-to-be goes missing", my interest was sparked; reminiscent of the Lacie Peterson story. Now something that sparks my interest doesn't denote my lack of disgust - living in this copy-cat, 'monkey see, monkey do' kinda world wears on my frail psyche. However, after checking my comcast news, it was revealed that this missing bride-to-be from Atlanta led the nation on a man hunt, subjected her family to anguish, and played off her fiance as a suspect in the eyes of the public. Apparently all because she had "Cold feet...", and called her fiance from a pay phone in New Mexico - not to say that she was safe and just needed some space - but to tell him that she had been kidnapped and taken to Albuquerque. This shit is beyond my comprehension. What the hell ever happen to the good ol' fashion, "Honey, I'm just not ready for this.."? Even if you felt the pressing need to flee your city, inform your family for God's sake! And telling him that you've been kidnapped? Yeah, no, this is more than just a case of pre-wedding jitters. Instead of a white dress, I would suggest a white jacket... ...a straight one. In other news... Life has been moving along at light speed, but I'd say that I'm finally learning to adjust to the pace. It's easy to lose yourself when you're busy about doing the things you love. Of course, my life isn't completely where I'd like it to be, but the journey to where I'm heading is losing it's frustration and becoming more sweet each day. I just sat back yesterday, after a hard day of earning a paycheck, and took a moment to look back on the past 3 years. All that's happened, the beautiful people *and incredible athletes* I've come to know...I have so much to be thankful for and yet there's still that sense of unworthiness. Instead of looking at my situation as luck, I consider it being blessed with opportunity and friendships that mean so much to me I don't know how I got along without them. I've struggled. I've questioned. I've wondered if 'my day' would ever come. Patience, hard work, and confidence - in that order. It's taken me 20 + years to learn the true meaning of those three words.

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